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its idle time and i dont have anything to do other than reading my mails. I was thinking of writing a letter for myself but it seems so mushy and i just dont feel like it. oh well,i just have to think of anything else but then i remembered that today is April22 and tomorrow would be 23. And so?! whats with the date?!! uhm nothing really... :( i dont have to feel sad right?! i should be happy! but why am i feeling this way...well to be honest am not feeling good these days. *sigh* i wanted to share it with you but i would choose not to and just keep it to myself. Am not ready to disclose it with you guys! You know me, so long as i can carry the pain within me i would take it and just do whatever it takes. Its just a decision to make,a decision that can only be decided by me and not by anyone else. -- not that deep ayt?!! hahaha! -- No one really knows what i really feel inside. People often noticed my eyes and i would always deny that i wasnt crying.haha! of course they cant do anything but to take my word, though its pretty obvious but Id just give them a smile. The day would end as it used to be though everything within me is all pretenses and diguises.Each one of us have issues to deal with and i dont want to add up to other peoples concern.But dont worry guys its not a big deal anyway... worry not! Dont over react or do not over analyze the situation. Perhaps am just sad that is why im able to say this right now. Maybe tomorrow id be fine! :) hope so.
