forthcoming
I really do not know how to start off this whole damn thing. Recently I’ve come to realized that people grow up psychologically regardless of age and of circumstance…and I feel like I am. Maybe there’s a big cloud of question marks in your head right now why I impart to you all these and where in the world did I get the idea that I grew up in someway?! Uhhmm….lets just put it this way…… for the couple of months my life has been a roller coaster, people around me may have not noticed it but behind the strong person that I am was a weak-willed girl searching for truth and ways to solve the big circle shaped puzzle that life has handed me. It has so many missing pieces that it’s so hard for me to solve it alone. But little by little I was able to find some of the missing pieces of it. Some just came in right in time, some just appeared by chance, and there are those which I actually set eyes on. And I must say that it’s not really easy dealing with it!
Along the way I met FEAR. I then became guarded by different emotions that I wasn’t able to go out my way because of that. I’ve had so many apprehensions at some point that it took me so long to made up my mind if I should go for it or not—if I shall continue solving for it or not!--I wanted to prove something and I wanted to see the real picture and get the message of what has been bugging me. I gave it some thought then, because i really want to be certain in all things that I ought to be doing because I don’t want to hurt people that I might come across with. I know some things will surely change along the way, because that’s the way things tend to happen! Yet, just by imagining what kind of experience it might bring into my life and to the person that I am now keeps me go on. I cannot give myself an assurance that everything will turn out well tomorrow or the following day or next year, but as to whatever realities and answers that I might find these days, I hope that it would be of better help for me in my search for what I have envisioned in. and so here I am now trying my very best to be brave in my search for justice and harmony.
*What I have written here doesn’t only tackle about a certain situation that had happened in my life but it is an array of thoughts resulting from different existing conditions.*
