a handful of thoughts
I wish I have a magic wand so that if something is not going on my way I could just turn it around and then in just a blink of an eye everything will turn out right. But sadly I don’t have the privilege to study at Hogwarts University where Harry Potter is studying and I don’t have magic spells that witches and warlocks knew. Im just a no extraordinary girl living in a chaotic world where in you can find uncertainty and disappointments in almost every corner of the way. I always wish for the good life—I guess everybody does!— but then the way to have it is not as easy as I imagined it to be.
They say that it all starts within you. Knowing who you are and what you really want are the questions you should ask yourself first. Sadly, these are the questions that people (especially teenagers) are taking for granted. Little do they know that those trivial questions are the key for their fulfillment later in life. And I admit that I am one of those people who took those questions for granted. I didn’t gave much of my attention to it. I mistakenly assumed that I knew myself already but I came to understand that I was wrong. I still have so many things to discover for myself. Until now I really do not know what to pursue with my life. I’m consistently telling myself that I should do this and that but i can’t always put into actions all the things that I have in mind for some reasons. I easily lose hope in almost everything and that fear is always in front of my way…and I really hate it! People are expecting something from me especially my family. They are expecting me to land in a good job after college, but then again, I still don’t have a work until now and it makes me feel like a BUM. I don’t know where to draw some strength and encouragement…I badly needed it right now. My self-esteem is slowly depleting…errr…I just hope and pray that I could have the kind of disposition that my friends have... and I know I can!
*sigh*
My yesteryears may have not been as colorful as others, but certainly I’ve had a life of my own that I lived by and it has given me so much knowledge and wisdom. Yet deep within every inch of my nerves I know that the lessons that I have had encountered in my ride is not yet enough. There’s still so much to find out and dreams to chase upon. I shall continue to live my life the way that it has to be and rediscover myself for the second time around. Trials are pain in the neck in my life, however, in every dreadful situation that I have come to pass through it only gave me the chance to rediscover myself again. It gives me the chance to know more of who I really am.
Life doesn’t seem to be as easy for me lately but I am trying to understand Gods purpose for me. Prayers unanswered will soon become answered prayers. And I am very much patient in waiting for it to come.
Have a good life everyone!
1 comment(s):
barbie. omg! chada gang. puede na, puede na. GOOD JOB!! hehehe.
yeah, i know we're all here for purpose. we all have functions. we just need to discover 'em.
basta, dont fret. we all feel that way. okay. mwah.. *
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